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Goraz
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 Posted: 02/19/04 - 04:05 Post subject: I'd like to explain myself
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Well I dont know why i'm composing this for total strangers but it has recently been on my mind and I'd like to share since people have a negative view of me personally and I don't blame you for that.
I know there will be replies, insults and questioning that are related to why even share this, we don't care etc... etc.. its ok if u don't want to read it.
I've experienced alot of things in my life and have made a substantial maturity jump over the last several years. I've learned from my experiences etc... etc... and I really do question myself as to why I was such an a*****e when i played EQ beacuse obviously that has created my image as a person through the internet. I can honestly say I am confused as to why I was an a*****e and I feel alot of guilt for doing so. I look back and reflect on why did I do this etc... etc.. and I do feel extremely bad about it. I can admit to my stupid mistakes i've made in an effort to coverup for something etc.etc.. and I've learned from em well.
To make a long story short, for those who have dealt with my nutballness in EQ , its irrelevant if what I'm saying changes your opinion on me or not but i am sorry.
I'm not posting this in an effort to come clean and recieve an open welcome etc. For some odd reason at 3 AM, i feel like explaining my past actions just so people know, aka food for thought.
I know i'm gonna get some replies with 'seek help' etc.. oh well. Quite frankly, this is just an internet board and doesn't affect our real lives in any relative sense. So it goes back to the question of why the f**k should I even post this topic. Again, I don't know. I can just say i've changed.
good night!
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Celestra
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 04:26 Post subject:
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Sometimes writing it down helps getting it off your chest when something bothers you.
I think everyone has moments like that, when they look back on their past decisions/actions and think "what the HELL was I thinking??". It's part of growing up.
Sleep well =)
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hitachi
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 04:28 Post subject:
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| Celestra wrote: | Sometimes writing it down helps getting it off your chest when something bothers you.
I think everyone has moments like that, when they look back on their past decisions/actions and think "what the HELL was I thinking??". It's part of growing up.
Sleep well =) |
f**k you disease incubator.
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Celestra
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 04:45 Post subject:
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Shut the f**k up hitachi.
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Buntz
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 04:58 Post subject: Re: I'd like to explain myself
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| Goraz wrote: | Well I dont know why i'm composing this for total strangers but it has recently been on my mind and I'd like to share since people have a negative view of me personally and I don't blame you for that.
I know there will be replies, insults and questioning that are related to why even share this, we don't care etc... etc.. its ok if u don't want to read it.
I've experienced alot of things in my life and have made a substantial maturity jump over the last several years. I've learned from my experiences etc... etc... and I really do question myself as to why I was such an a*****e when i played EQ beacuse obviously that has created my image as a person through the internet. I can honestly say I am confused as to why I was an a*****e and I feel alot of guilt for doing so. I look back and reflect on why did I do this etc... etc.. and I do feel extremely bad about it. I can admit to my stupid mistakes i've made in an effort to coverup for something etc.etc.. and I've learned from em well.
To make a long story short, for those who have dealt with my nutballness in EQ , its irrelevant if what I'm saying changes your opinion on me or not but i am sorry.
I'm not posting this in an effort to come clean and recieve an open welcome etc. For some odd reason at 3 AM, i feel like explaining my past actions just so people know, aka food for thought.
I know i'm gonna get some replies with 'seek help' etc.. oh well. Quite frankly, this is just an internet board and doesn't affect our real lives in any relative sense. So it goes back to the question of why the f**k should I even post this topic. Again, I don't know. I can just say i've changed.
good night! |
nope
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Occulis
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 07:53 Post subject: Re: I'd like to explain myself
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| Goraz wrote: | | I can honestly say I am confused as to why I was an a*****e and I feel alot of guilt for doing so. I look back and reflect on why did I do this etc... etc.. and I do feel extremely bad about it. |
| Goraz wrote: | | Quite frankly, this is just an internet board and doesn't affect our real lives in any relative sense. |
Yeah. Maybe a psychologist would have a different opinion on whether or not your feelings are your "real life."
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Confused
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 09:39 Post subject: Re: I'd like to explain myself
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| Goraz wrote: | Well I dont know why i'm composing this for total strangers but it has recently been on my mind and I'd like to share since people have a negative view of me personally and I don't blame you for that.
I know there will be replies, insults and questioning that are related to why even share this, we don't care etc... etc.. its ok if u don't want to read it.
I've experienced alot of things in my life and have made a substantial maturity jump over the last several years. I've learned from my experiences etc... etc... and I really do question myself as to why I was such an a*****e when i played EQ beacuse obviously that has created my image as a person through the internet. I can honestly say I am confused as to why I was an a*****e and I feel alot of guilt for doing so. I look back and reflect on why did I do this etc... etc.. and I do feel extremely bad about it. I can admit to my stupid mistakes i've made in an effort to coverup for something etc.etc.. and I've learned from em well.
To make a long story short, for those who have dealt with my nutballness in EQ , its irrelevant if what I'm saying changes your opinion on me or not but i am sorry.
I'm not posting this in an effort to come clean and recieve an open welcome etc. For some odd reason at 3 AM, i feel like explaining my past actions just so people know, aka food for thought.
I know i'm gonna get some replies with 'seek help' etc.. oh well. Quite frankly, this is just an internet board and doesn't affect our real lives in any relative sense. So it goes back to the question of why the f**k should I even post this topic. Again, I don't know. I can just say i've changed.
good night! |
Go to Hell.
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The Guy On The Couch
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 11:42 Post subject:
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Hi Goraz 2.0
I have noticed a different posting trend in you the last 6 or so months. I must say that i actually read your posts now since they usually have some usefull info. Glad you came around. =)
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Zuldane
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 14:31 Post subject:
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| Celestra wrote: | | Shut the f**k up hitachi. |
hahaha
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Uglarbashdemgud
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 15:18 Post subject:
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This post is missing due to a database problem. Database recovery is on the way. Please do not edit this entry!
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BlingBling
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 18:04 Post subject:
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who the f**k is the guy on the couch and you trying to be a badass online makes you an a*****e for life bro
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Goraz
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 19:40 Post subject: Re: I'd like to explain myself
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| Occulis wrote: | | Goraz wrote: | | I can honestly say I am confused as to why I was an a*****e and I feel alot of guilt for doing so. I look back and reflect on why did I do this etc... etc.. and I do feel extremely bad about it. |
| Goraz wrote: | | Quite frankly, this is just an internet board and doesn't affect our real lives in any relative sense. |
Yeah. Maybe a psychologist would have a different opinion on whether or not your feelings are your "real life." |
maybe i should elaborate cause u percieved it a way that I didn't intend.
When I say i feel guilty, I'm talking about general a*****e actions for instance in EQ, I ninjaed Jboots and left the group back in najena, or ninjaed DWB's from vask and just left without any remorse or anything after sitting in those camps for hours when it wasn't even my turn. Regardless of it being online, it still is a flat out a*****e thing to do. =\
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Isriam
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 19:41 Post subject:
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Turn off your computer and go have a beer. You'll forget you ninja'd.
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Alerik
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 19:56 Post subject:
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I think it was you Goraz, but you p****d off Aegis Terra so bad, that borgh (i think it was borgh) called an ATV on your ass to have someone find you and remove you. This was before the days of being able to remove someone without being in the same zone, so you ran away just to f**k with us, was pretty funny actually. Think it was Ramsus who found you lol.
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Tolanin
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 20:00 Post subject:
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dude one time i was like ohnos everyone in eq h8zors me than i stop caring.
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Paden
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 22:15 Post subject:
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Heh no one liked me either but i'm not crying about it.
It's a game, play it as you like.
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NinjaBurger
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 22:20 Post subject: Re: I'd like to explain myself
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| Goraz wrote: | Well I dont know why i'm composing this for total strangers but it has recently been on my mind and I'd like to share since people have a negative view of me personally and I don't blame you for that.
I know there will be replies, insults and questioning that are related to why even share this, we don't care etc... etc.. its ok if u don't want to read it.
I've experienced alot of things in my life and have made a substantial maturity jump over the last several years. I've learned from my experiences etc... etc... and I really do question myself as to why I was such an a*****e when i played EQ beacuse obviously that has created my image as a person through the internet. I can honestly say I am confused as to why I was an a*****e and I feel alot of guilt for doing so. I look back and reflect on why did I do this etc... etc.. and I do feel extremely bad about it. I can admit to my stupid mistakes i've made in an effort to coverup for something etc.etc.. and I've learned from em well.
To make a long story short, for those who have dealt with my nutballness in EQ , its irrelevant if what I'm saying changes your opinion on me or not but i am sorry.
I'm not posting this in an effort to come clean and recieve an open welcome etc. For some odd reason at 3 AM, i feel like explaining my past actions just so people know, aka food for thought.
I know i'm gonna get some replies with 'seek help' etc.. oh well. Quite frankly, this is just an internet board and doesn't affect our real lives in any relative sense. So it goes back to the question of why the f**k should I even post this topic. Again, I don't know. I can just say i've changed.
good night! |
You know, livejournal is great for people like you.
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 22:27 Post subject:
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| Alerik wrote: | | I think it was you Goraz, but you p****d off Aegis Terra so bad, that borgh (i think it was borgh) called an ATV on your ass to have someone find you and remove you. This was before the days of being able to remove someone without being in the same zone, so you ran away just to f**k with us, was pretty funny actually. Think it was Ramsus who found you lol. |
Borgh was a nice guy. He helped me a lot when I started playing.
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Buntz
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Posted: 02/19/04 - 23:25 Post subject: Re: I'd like to explain myself
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| Occulis wrote: | | Goraz wrote: | | I can honestly say I am confused as to why I was an a*****e and I feel alot of guilt for doing so. I look back and reflect on why did I do this etc... etc.. and I do feel extremely bad about it. |
| Goraz wrote: | | Quite frankly, this is just an internet board and doesn't affect our real lives in any relative sense. |
Yeah. Maybe a psychologist would have a different opinion on whether or not your feelings are your "real life." |
Couldn't of said it better myself.
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Celestra
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Posted: 02/20/04 - 04:09 Post subject:
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Couldn't HAVE
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Buntz
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Posted: 02/20/04 - 04:42 Post subject:
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| Celestra wrote: | | Couldn't HAVE |
I SAID OF
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Celestra
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Posted: 02/20/04 - 04:44 Post subject:
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YOU SAID WRONG!
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Buntz
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Posted: 02/20/04 - 04:47 Post subject:
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| Buntz wrote: | | Celestra wrote: | | Couldn't HAVE |
I SAID OF |
COURSE I knew that it was wrong.
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Celestra
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Posted: 02/20/04 - 04:52 Post subject:
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No you didn't!
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Buntz
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Posted: 02/20/04 - 07:27 Post subject:
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| Celestra wrote: | | No you didn't! |
LIAR
neeenor, neeenor
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Alerik
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Posted: 02/20/04 - 14:51 Post subject:
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Borgh was the man.
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Goraz
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Posted: 02/20/04 - 15:10 Post subject:
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| Alerik wrote: | | I think it was you Goraz, but you p****d off Aegis Terra so bad, that borgh (i think it was borgh) called an ATV on your ass to have someone find you and remove you. This was before the days of being able to remove someone without being in the same zone, so you ran away just to f**k with us, was pretty funny actually. Think it was Ramsus who found you lol. |
ROFL I remember this, I went anon and he found me in West Karana, hahahahhahaha the good olde days.
I felt like I was running from the commies
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Minion
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Posted: 02/20/04 - 15:14 Post subject: Re: I'd like to explain myself
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| Goraz wrote: | | Occulis wrote: | | Goraz wrote: | | I can honestly say I am confused as to why I was an a*****e and I feel alot of guilt for doing so. I look back and reflect on why did I do this etc... etc.. and I do feel extremely bad about it. |
| Goraz wrote: | | Quite frankly, this is just an internet board and doesn't affect our real lives in any relative sense. |
Yeah. Maybe a psychologist would have a different opinion on whether or not your feelings are your "real life." |
maybe i should elaborate cause u percieved it a way that I didn't intend.
When I say i feel guilty, I'm talking about general a*****e actions for instance in EQ, I ninjaed Jboots and left the group back in najena, or ninjaed DWB's from vask and just left without any remorse or anything after sitting in those camps for hours when it wasn't even my turn. Regardless of it being online, it still is a flat out a*****e thing to do. =\ |
Yah but most people don't like you because you're an idiot, not because you were a c******k in EQ.
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Buntz
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Posted: 03/25/04 - 14:44 Post subject:
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| Quote: | | who the f**k is the guy on the couch |
Sounds familiar
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